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Rituale`~
The Story Behind the Song
The restlessness and paranoia that creeps in, in the middle of the night when
Lyrics
I hear you out in the hall
I know about you all
You tell me you dream the strangest things
I never make it through the night
Lord please forgive me
You won't see me
Scarecrow~
Story Behind the Song
Before the proof comes the sensation that something some where has changed.
Lyrics
The change is in the leaves today
Sinking~
Story Behind the Song
Every so often, in walks someone, to whom you'll always play the fool.
Lyrics
He paged me 3 1/2 hours ago
I wonder what you must be thinking
Every thirty seconds i swear
I'll never see
The Truth About Us~
Story behind the song
The moment all of your fears become reality
Lyrics
Time and time again
You seem to think somehow
You pour yourself out all for me
Before the comes of morning suns
Not Like You~
Story Behind The Song
Questioning the judgment and morals of anyone who would allow another
So you know what's best for me
I hold his hand as my brother's dying
I can't step aside
It's not about what's right and wrong
Oh my god, I hold my head
Alone~
All Alone in the summertime
All alone not just some of the time
Calling You
I'd do it for you
Life's summer's as cold as every wintertime
All alone every time and time
Calling You
I'd do it for you
I tell myself I do what I do
4am~
Story Behind the Song
Lyrics
It was late when I got there, and I stayed longer than I probably should have. But it was one of those kind of nights where you cant think of anything else, and you know me, when I get like that, I can't help myself. All I wanted to do was stare at her legs, and fantasize, about the way she would taste, if she ever saw me as anything, other than stupid. But I stayed back, out of the lights, and smoked my cigerettes, and examined every breeze, for the faintest hints, of her perfume.
At 4 am on Wednesday
The Fall~
Story Behind the Song
Lyrics
I've dreamed A thousand ways, to walk my mind away,
I'm afraid of all your pretty words, cause no one ever stays,
Over and over
I'll be anything you want me to, it's all the same,
Just please don't go away
'despite the things they say'
Over and over
I'll be anything you want me to, it's all the same,
Just please don't go away
Enemies~
Story Behind the Song
Lyrics
Part lack of sleep and lack of food
love you more than anything
everytime i open my mouth
its always the same
Frozen City~
Story Behind the Song
Wrote "Frozen City" at the same time as "February". Naturaly it became the portrait of the landscape that Februarys lovers must suffer alone.
Lyrics
I've watched this frozen cities shoulders hunched, turned it's collar to the cold, in the way we talk about, getting out, on the days that aren't so bad, and the way we don't talk at all, on the ones that are. the wind, has been, a constant gust, for the last month, and it's still just getting colder. as the cracks at the windows moan like ghosts against the wind, it's trying to get in, to haunt me, and taunt me, and tease, all of me, that isn't already permenantly frozen, and as the weather slowly coats you with an incredible sense of pointlessness, the street side snow, goes black, and so goes, my hopes, and points of view. and the cold, sends a shiver, deeper than my soul, that begins to feel more like fear, and gradually less like cold, but the stinging doesn't stop. and i say it's you, and you say it's me, but it doesn't matter, because it doesn't change a thing. 'cause it's been, so dark, and so cold, for so long, that you can tell that summer isn't comming. and i blame you, and you blame me, for February.
February~
Story Behind the Song~
The cold and isolation of winter growing outward from from between us.
Lyrics
I've crawled to be near you to stand back the cold that's freezing me through
And i felt so all alone
my bones
and we've always placed all blame on the sky
and rain
oh, oh, it's so cold
Oh, oh, oh,
I've blamed you you've blamed me
Song 4 Mary~
Story Behind the Song
Hind sight is 20/20 but, the regrets can last forever.
Lyrics
Hush now, lay down, sweet broken angel
You had me backed into a corner
I wish i would have thought to
Come now, calm down,
the knowledge of the crumbling world around you won't let you sleep
Telling all your stories
I hear you out in the hall
Telling all your lies
But I don't mind
I don't mind
And I know all your stories
I've listened through the walls
And I know all your lies
But I don't mind
I don't mind
Well, All your lies are just screams
I feel you loose your grip
But I won't let you slip away
Don't slip away
So I sit in the hall by the windows
I count the streetcars on Market all night
It's becoming a rituale
But you don't know
For what I'm about to do
Lord please forgive me
For what I have to do
To you
I know you'll try
I only hope that you don't mind
Coming
Down
Down
under a charcoal gray blanket sky
and it whispers like a scarecrow
shivering down every street
every hand is in its pocket
an every cloud
is draped across rooftops
like children
building basement tents
out of blankets
and stubby little buildings
and the clouds like the blankets
worn pale in spots
leaving areas
an oddly different shade of gray
and the city
just gray....
i dont know why
its just always been that way
and the last of the leaves
in the naked trees
are all a little nervous
cause scarecrow's
leading the death march
and it's all down from here
the scarecrow's
leading the death march
and it's all down from here.
to say he'd be an hour late
he's always loved to make his grnd entrances
more so he loves to make me wait
the last i heard he was in San Francisco
he said the Baltimore thing
wasn't gonna work out
7 months 3 weeks and a day
and if he shows i hope i finaly find out
i wonder why you've finaly come back around
with out a sound
you've always loved to watch me sinking
this time you had to make it back
to watch me, to watch me
drown
i heard your car door
and every 60 fill my glass more
its turning out im ending up
the same old shitfaced i was last time
and you, every time i've reached for you
you insist on being the razors edge
i've always tried
to make the cuts seem beautiful
this time i'm bleeding 1/2 to death
why you need to be
insesently
cruel to me
I scribble you in frowns
we pray these days will change
But don't know how
It's obvious you wanted us
To live your lies
But you'll never say good-bye
You.ll just cry
You.ll see this through
But your lonely's only going
To be the death of you
All too well
You've come to know your fears
As you've dragged yourself
Through these years
In tears
In pools of desperation at my feet
But I've grown so bored
I'm home no more
For your love
Our dying final songs
May well be sung
You.ll scream and cry
We'll both tell lies
But now it's all finally done
So just run
Human suffer in an effort to defend an obviously ridiculous and unfounded
point of view.
Better than I know myself
And your gonna do what's right for me
You've come to save me from myself
But you don't see it like I do
How can I sleep if my Mama's crying
If my lover's crying
When it goes down it's up to You
I know that's what you want me to do
But I've made up my mind
If I do I'm just like you
And I'm not like you
Or how much pain's acceptable
You try to keep us week so you seem strong
But now I know it's not my fault
It's not my fault
Goddess watch over me
Goddess watch over me
It's not my fault
Waiting for you in Vain
All alone in the wintertime
Always alone
Waiting for you is insane
All alone every LIFE TIME
Always alone
Call to pull me through to you
Calling anybody
Please help me
To make it through
Waiting for you is the same
All alone every single time
And time and time again
Waiting for you
All alone every Fucked Up Time
Always alone
Call to pull me through to you
Calling anybody
Please help me
To make it through
And I do what I do for You
Between you and her lays a vast waste land of Insecurity
I pretended she was doing it for me, like she wanted me to like her, more, than she probably already thought I did. Like she was only acting, like she didn't notice. Only pretending not to care. Like the smiles were mine, and she knew I was there. She knew I was there. But soon enough some one taller and better looking came along. And just like that she was gone.
At 4 am on Wednesday
I waited a while longer, and continued to fantasize, but the sun was comming up and I smoked the last of my cigerettes an hour ago, and eventually this all felt as stupid as I usually do. So I left too.
Forsaking pride for a moment of feeling wanted.
I've tried but i can't fly away, so hold my hand and make me safe,
And over and over
All that I can say
Is please don't...
Youv'e got to make it so I can stay
And you'll never want to go away
But I know that's what we'll come to
If I don't want to
'despite the things they say'
You won't be asked to keep your promises, so promise me you'll stay, stay.
All that I can say
Is my god you look so beautiful
Treat me anyway you like, you know I won't complain,
You won't be asked to keep your promises, so promise me you'll stay, stay.
All that I can say
Is my god you look so beautiful
Treat me anyway you like, you know I won't complain,
Those long horrible moments between over and and gone.
and too much me on zero you
and i know these outbursts
officially make me crazy
but i dont eat and i dont sleep
and i dont know what to do
no i dont know what to do
and i thought that maybe
you'd explain
how we get from
to barely more than enemies
we sleep in the same bed
but we dont even speak
and im falling down around you
like i cant help but be the rain
and i wish i could surround you
but im afraid that i would drown you
i wish i could surround you
i wish i could surround you
only the wrong things make their way out
and with all these lost words
im that much more your fool
and i meant it when i said
i dont know what to do
you want what you cant have
and i want this to end
so fucking bad i cant stand
all these lost words
they leave me just your fool
and i meant it when i said
i dont know what to do
i've tried to decieve you
to make me seem that much more
just like you
oh, oh, it's cold
every time the cold would sink into
every time that it started to rain
if you want SO BAD to go
then, then just, just go
oh,oh
we're so cold
we blame each other for February
close your eyes, rest your mind
a little while
i never understood
the private war your waging
maybe it's finaly time
to just let it go
just let it go
it's hard to love from there
it's hard to even care
i guess i just never noticed
that you were already there
and it's just that you were scared
and you didn't want to be alone
tell you i loved you
and every thing is going to be
alright, it's alright
i promise, i promise
we've all made our choices
you can't have and hold
so hard
i know your fears chased you
to all your afraid of
it's too bad, you never had
a little bit better chance